Saturday, May 22, 2010

Long Slow and Steady

* I like this one. Arguably a poem. It's found in my other blog, "The Strange Endurance."


I'm just getting stranger and stranger. I have to force connection. Maybe I was just nervous but, when I spoke to you on that amazing and subtle night, on the couch, downstairs, below sleeping heads, I forced myself to listen. You had interesting things to say. Honestly, it was one of the best conversations I've had in a long time. We were without intentions, at least, we were silent about it. We talked movies, food, and music. Then Taco bell. Then the cemetery. Then you drove me home. I spend most of my days quiet. My jaw hurt from all of the chatter. It was a fun sting. Thank you for bringing me something real. I've haven't been here lately. Maybe it's the pain of being a man. Maybe it's the struggle of the artist. Maybe it's the insanity kicking in. Whatever it is, you helped me clear my head of nonsense, worry, and doubt. For a few hours, it was just you, me, and words. Text messages can be so lame. Facebook messages can be so dry. And lets not get started about Myspace... You were there with me. Looking in my eyes, listening to what I said. You were interested. I was there too. My eyes danced over you. You were hair, I was hair. We were words and laughter. You could count my yawn three times over and till this day, I'll still say that I wasn't tired.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

King of the Hill

Dale doesn't know she's seeing John Redcorn
Everyone else in town knows.
She's fucking and sucking
ducking and dodging her happiness
hiding away.
Advantage is taken
love is mistaken for a compromise that
was never made.
He's smoking and choking
on jokes and poking at
everything except for the truth.
Dale is a man of secrets too but
no one really cares. He wears an orange hat
it lays his hair flat
still smoking and choking away.
John Redcorn you dog.
A son you can love in shadows
but can't claim him your own.

Nothing

Why does it all have to be so personal?
It shouldn't be about me.
There's more going on out there
the things I can't see.
Miles stretch on over valleys, through hills
kindergarden appeal
for real.
I fucking can't stand it.
Everything so clear
but I can't see a thing. 
My eyes are shut.
I can see everything.
Over under
fuck it
Thunder.
Blunder.
Wonder.
And the storm rages on
inside of me.
On top of you
of her
of them.
All women.
Too many. Too many. Too much.
I can't can't can't can't stand it. I want something else.
There needs to be something else.
Everything is dead or dying. 
Children are small or crying
never growing old
just stay young. Be dumb. Make stupid decisions. Make stupid choices. Say stupid things. Fuck stupid girls. Punch stupid boys. Sweeten sour lemons. Swimming in warm waters. It just doesn't matter to me. Not yet. Not at all. This isn't poetry. This isn't anything.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Just stop...

Sex
Drugs
Passion
Loud Music
Sugar
Food
Fat
Anger
Rage
Pain
Suffering
Torture
Love
Cinema
Strange
Fuck
Dizziness
Breathless
Fighting
Running Away
Changing
Jealousy
Pride
Forgetfulness
Favoritism
Freeloader
Artist
Shallow
Absent Minded
Thoughtful
Generous
Caring
Loving
Sincere
Horny
Really Horny
Really Fucking Horny
Lonely
Needy
Stupid
Smart
Intelligent
Innovative
Creative
Repetitive
Repetitive
Competitive
Angst
Quiet
Invisible
Empty
Too Hard on Himself
Procrastinator
Eager
Hopeful
Hopeless
Romantic
Charming
Smooth
Sensitive
Envious
Charged
Electric
Paranoid
Wealthy
Lucky
Really Fucking Lucky
Vain
Show Off
Tries Too Hard
Careful
Too Careful
Bold but, Not Bold Enough
Tall
Skinny
Getting Fat
Abstract
Strong
Powerful
Lost.

Rag

Raggin on yourself again
stupid boy
cutting yourself down again
stupid stupid boy
everything is not so black
words are not so harsh
so sharp
just cut it out
before you cut yourself out

Matter of Time

[12:47:38 AM] blainecounter: yea yea yea yea
[12:47:40 AM] blainecounter: do do do
[12:47:57 AM] blainecounter: shake shake shake rock rock rock
[12:48:08 AM] blainecounter: i'm giving you my best here
[12:48:45 AM] blainecounter: but will you take it?
[12:48:56 AM] blainecounter: or mistake it for something that it's not
[12:49:16 AM] blainecounter: whether clever or something better
[12:49:20 AM] blainecounter: it's all i've got.
[12:49:40 AM] blainecounter: still warming up.
[12:49:44 AM] blainecounter: it's been a while
[12:49:50 AM] blainecounter: since i've actually seen your smile
[12:50:01 AM] blainecounter: and I've gotta say, i've missed the ways it bends
[12:50:10 AM] blainecounter: up that pretty face
[12:50:21 AM] blainecounter: and down to your waist
[12:50:26 AM] blainecounter: but, don't waste time
[12:50:34 AM] blainecounter: i've got yours
[12:50:38 AM] blainecounter: do you have mine?
[12:50:47 AM] blainecounter: if you did, what would you do with it?
[12:50:53 AM] blainecounter: brandish it like a weapon
[12:50:59 AM] blainecounter: of mass destruction
[12:51:12 AM] blainecounter: i am the buildinfg block that create construction
[12:51:17 AM] blainecounter: I rediuce reduction
[12:51:25 AM] blainecounter: i can funk with funtcion
[12:51:32 AM] blainecounter: swin in seduction
[12:51:44 AM] blainecounter: and dry off in empathy
[12:51:50 AM] blainecounter: i wish you felt like me
[12:52:01 AM] blainecounter: the way i feel
[12:52:05 AM] blainecounter: the way I move
[12:52:10 AM] blainecounter: you know it's slow
[12:52:16 AM] blainecounter: if given one direction
[12:52:25 AM] blainecounter: stead is the pace I'd go
[12:52:35 AM] blainecounter: speeding in the slow lane
[12:52:47 AM] blainecounter: bring down aeroplanes
[12:52:58 AM] blainecounter: with a wave of my hand
[12:53:10 AM] blainecounter: bring then way down
[12:53:14 AM] blainecounter: down the the ground
[12:53:22 AM] blainecounter: roaring, soaring down to me
[12:53:33 AM] blainecounter: bird with plastic wings
[12:53:34 AM] blainecounter: sings
[12:53:43 AM] blainecounter: what a wonderful thing
[12:53:49 AM] blainecounter: this plastic wing bird sang to me
[12:53:53 AM] blainecounter: she said
[12:53:55 AM] blainecounter: the wind is pure
[12:53:58 AM] blainecounter: the sky is vast
[12:54:04 AM] blainecounter: the future is here
[12:54:13 AM] blainecounter: the past has passed
[12:54:16 AM] blainecounter: on and on
[12:54:20 AM] blainecounter: and the bird was gone