G and an H

It was difficult at first

but now i can see things that are far away 

I can tell some girls to fuck off

at least in my head

and others to come close

I can flip a coin and catch it without looking

all while thinking i'm the shit

no one can take this from me

unless i was sleeping

but i keep my eyes wide open now-a-days

I fantasize way more than I ought to

i ought to fantasize about more interesting things

like where i'll be in 5 years

or what makes me happy on rainy days like tomorrow

i guess it's not what i ought to

i guess it's what i am