Inner Thoughts

"Who are you?"
It only takes a moment to ask
But you never ask.
You've never asked.
And all my life I've been waiting
with out realizing it's all I want
from you or anyone else.
You say you don't know who I am anymore
This makes two of us,
one of you.
You've split me down the middle
I walk in two shoes.
I sing the sorrow of the blues
and burn with the fire red.
Love is buried deep in me
my love for you
Burning inside, crawling out of the grace
Out of the grave.
Sometimes I wonder why
I say what I say.
I've been trying since awakening to do what's right
but you leave me left out.

So I'm the liar. So I'm the disguise. The view behind your eyes for the problems that you seek. The cause of the pain, the hunger, and the worry. So I am the prodigal son. So I return time and time again. So I'm met without a smile. I'm met without a hug or a love that will hold me close. Frowns without wedding gowns only children that bring you down driving you crazy. Round and round. This room is a dance. I hate the way it feels. I want mine. I want my own. So I'll have it. I'll be the man. I'll be my own. All I need is the cash. Forever and now. Flame to ash. In my hands. The world is a teardrop running down your face. I fought for this. I fight for my escape. This is the world. I'm breaking through the walls. Taking the guilt and slapping it in the face. I'll have my way out. You can thank me when I'm gone, Mom.